Insomnia: When It's Random and You're Ready
We have all had those moments when random song lyrics or lines from a movie show up out of nowhere as we go about our day. When the time is right, they appear as if conjured by magic and add a little giggle to the situation.
British Comedian Miranda Hart is famous for this in her self-named sitcom, Miranda. If we insomniacs are lucky enough, we might even wake from a restful night’s sleep a line or two from a song on the tip of the tongue.
Recently, I had a similar experience one evening on my couch as my eyes began to grow heavy and sleep made a delicious threat to appear.
An unexpected flutter
Following a long day at school - all of them are long, actually. I sat down on the couch and began to aimlessly scroll through Facebook. It didn’t take too long before any Facebook fascination faded and my eyelids started to flutter a bit. (You know you’re an insomniac when you get excited at the very thought of your eyes closing involuntarily and your body beginning to close up shop.)
I did a little inward gasp, eased up off the couch, and headed for the shower. As I did so, a line from the book I have been reading to my third graders began to float through my brain.
You’ve got this, body!
We have been reading Esio Trot by Roald Dahl, and the main character is Mr. Hoppy, a shy man who finally finds a way to talk to his neighbor, Mrs. Silver.
One of my favorite lines in the book happens when he is running downstairs to her flat to knock on her door and he repeats, “The greatest moment of my life is coming up right now! I mustn't bish it. I mustn’t bosh it! I must keep very calm!”
Friends, after not having a solid night’s sleep in several days, I momentarily morphed into Mr. Hoppy; I was not about to bish nor bosh the opportunity being granted me to doze off into dreamland.
Careful not to bish or bosh
Not wanting to make a single wrong step, I quickly made one last trip to the bathroom, told my night owl of a daughter “goodnight,” turned on my noisemaker, and settled into bed. All the while, I was doing my best to keep my heart rate low and avoid getting too excited about the idea of actually sleeping soundly.
Mustn’t bish it. Mustn’t bosh it. I don’t know that the meaning of those words I had read dozens of times at school ever had such a clear and relevant meaning for me as they did that night.
One success at a time
For once, I listened to my body and took a cue and ran with it - slowly and quietly, of course. It didn’t take long to doze off, and I am thankful for every restful moment of that night.
I know it won’t always happen so easily, but just like my students are learning about character traits as we read Esio Trot, I am learning about my body’s sleep traits as each week passes. My one goal going forward is to neither bish nor bosh the moments I am given.
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