Hello,
Im 28 yrs old. Since ive been 21, after finishing 3 years of army service, i have trouble sleeping well. I used to sleep good before and during the army. The first days after i was discharged, started waking up at 6am needing to pee, having racing thoughts about life and what not. Couldn't go back to sleep. I believe i was falling asleep okay.
After, when i started working, started having problems with waking up and getting enough sleep. I started being anxious about missing my alarm, and also about getting enough sleep. This continues to this day, now im working a physical job that i wake up to at 6:30 everyday. Yesterday i played basketball and went to sleep at around 23:15 and just couldn't close my eyes.
When I don't have an early alarm which sets a specific sleeping time for me, im fine usually. Like in the weekends. I fall asleep easily and my sleep is relatively okay.
Almost every night when i go to sleep i have racing thoughts. I just can't stop my head from thinking. About life, my relationship, career, things that bother me. Some days it's better when i feel like i resolved things but still im not falling asleep so deeply and waking up at my alarm, it's always before, always with needing to pee at the middle of the night.
In the army i couldve fallen asleep everywhere and always because you are super tired always. Once i got a position with a lot of responsibility, towards the end of the service, i remember falling asleep, already sleeping practically, and waking up anxiously to check that i wrote all the missions i have for tomorrow.
And this unfortunately can happen today, i can notice falling asleep and my brain just jumps.
I know it was long, thanks for getting to this point. I want to solve this once and for all. I know there's CBT routines for that. My mom suffered from insomnia but after taking paxxet she sleeps super deep. My twin brother has insomnia maybe even worse than me.
Im taking 10mg lexapro for a year now.
Would love for some advice, thank you very much.