Not able to sleep well for years

I am a brain tumor survivor who was misdiagnosed with fibro. I was married to a functional alcoholic as my Father was. I had it removed in 2011. He filed for divorce that same year where I didn't get my own lawyer. I had to take him back to court where I settled out of court for some money. In the scheme of things not much. I should have gotten my own lawyer but one of his friends told me not to spend all the money on lawyer fees. I am not a very good person when it comes to not trusting people. I trust too much. Most people I am finding are more concern about their own life and money. My Father pushed me into the marriage and told me I didn't need to have kids. He was 19 years older than me. I try to be a nice catholic girl. I am a Christian and believe all of this is temporary it is not eternal. My two remaining sisters are screwed up from the screwed up family we grew up in. My Mom died when I was 27 from lung cancer. She first got it when I was in high school. They removed the tumor but she told no one. One of the nurse's daughters went to our high school and told a good friend of mind. She told me. I was 16 years old living in a household where my older sister and my Dad were fighting and yelling every night. I told my Mom's best friend Eleanor who told me Mom did not have cancer. Here she did. So I didn't worry about it. I felt bad for a lot of years after she died.Their was no intimacy in my marriage. He smoked and drank. He was a real estate salesman. I don't feel bad about it now. I miss not having children and most of the boyfriends I have had are drinkers. I have stayed away from that. I used to drink, get drunk and was miserable when I was sick with the tumor. So now at 71 a bunch of health issues. I fell about 3 years ago, working for the census bureau part time. Had to have surgery on my right shoulder under Medicare. I did not want worksmen comp doing it. I picked my own surgeon. When the nurse found out worksmen comp was coming in the home for therapy for my knee, they wouldn't come in for nursing or therapy. I notified the state of florida who found them in violation. I was on celebrex and so many other pain meds when I had the tumor that my stomach is screwed up. I had my second scope done on my stomach and besides chronic chemical gastritis, hiatal hernia and esphogitis. I can't eat anything. Our health system which is a government body is going down the tubes. I was chairmen of a citizen volunteer subcommittee for an indoor warm water therapy pool. They sold the property while I was sick. It took me serveral years to rehab. I drove into Naples, 17nm8les one way yo use the closest therapy pool in our area. I was going to before the broad before my surgery and was talked out of it. Here just recently I heard they only bought the land to stop another hospital system from coming in. They are a monopoly and have no competition nor leadership.
I sometimes fall asleep at 4 or 5 in the morning and wake up at 8 or 9. I try to catch up on sleep. It is hard because I am lonely even with a boyfriend. His health is screwed up as well. I try to tell him not to drink wine so much and to exercise more. He is doing better. He is over today watching the game while I am doing paperwork etc. With inflation and other stuff, everything is so expensive. We do not have good medical care in SW FL anymore. When my ex finally passed away last year I got a raise from social security which helps a lot. I live in a manufactured home in 55plus park. Had IAN damaged where I had to replace my car and my duct work. Had some roof and bathroom damage. Not enough to go over my $2,100 deductible. I lost my night guard for my bruxism and TMJ which was torn when I fell from worksmen comp. I am studying the New Testament this year at church. Wr just studied the old for 2 years, a real eye opener. I tore my meniscus in my knee as well, not enough for surgery but it bothers me. I need to let go and develop some good sleeping habits. My brain tumor was a large as an orange in my head, my right frontsl lobe. I get the blues and need some one to share life without B S. I want to be happy. I know I am the only person who can make me happy. I want someone to really love me. I am capable of caring for people. I am a giver. My family looks at me as a bank, I do not have that kind of money any more. They think because wr traveled and I had a big house everything was great. Wrll it wasn't. Thinking of going to University of Miami to their sleep clinic. I go to their eye clinic in Naples. So this is my story. Faith helps a lot, when we go through life no one knows what one person has been through. We just go on. I know this is shorting my life etc. Sorry for skipping around in this and it is long also. Feel better just spelling it out. Blessings. Barb